january blues

     For the first month of a new year, I've been changing a lot more than I have expected to be. Not physical-appearance changing, I'm still too much of a pussy to ask a hairdresser to give me bangs, but mentally. A lot of these changes have been the result of my inner conscious telling itself that this year is going to be the most magnificent and rewarding, but, as trite as this sounds, most of these changes have just been happening by themselves, without me giving any second thought. I've found myself striving towards my goals, the resolutions I made for this year. I've begun to realize that filling my head with positive thoughts and ideas will inch me closer to realizing that there is true beauty in everything. I've begun to really think that if I put my mind and time into something that I can do anything (or, at least most things. There are a few exceptions; for example, getting bangs. Or going to the moon). Thoughts manifest themselves, right?
      Anyways, setting aside all of the sappiness and philosophical nothingness, I've started stepping out of my comfort zone a lot, causing myself to become infatuated with things I've deemed not-likeable in my previous years of being conscious enough to truly favor things. (A few of them being:)

• Acoustic music. This time last year I would've denied any mention of my future liking of acoustic music, saying that I prefer upbeat music to soft, ballads. However, that changed this month. It started with me truly giving Lights's most recent acoustic album a full, thorough listen. The vulnerability and dulcet tone of her voice juxtaposed faultlessly to the gentle instrumentals interpreted from the electronic songs she put out back in 2011, every track a gentler, calmer rendition. Followed by that was Bombay Bicycle Club's 2010 album Flaws, an album composed of all acoustic, folk music that were both original songs or covers of artists within the same sound. Followed by that was Lucy Rose's Like I Used To, followed by that was Mac Demarco's acoustic album, etc. I think the reason why this type of music is so much more appealing to me now than it was before is because this softer genre of music fills my mind and my life with stillness and vulnerability; it gives you a time to think and reflect.
• Pants. (READ FURTHER) And by pants I mean long pants, specifically jeans. Being an avid fan of shorts, I've been wearing long jeans even when it isn't cold out, which is quite odd. It's nice to have extra material hugging your legs. Is that weird? It's weird.
• My teeth. It's hard to believe that it's taking fourteen years on this earth to realize that my teeth are not only wonky, but a work of art. I've begun to appreciate the ruggedness of the tops of them and the subtle gap between my front teeth to their fullest ability, and I've been smiling with my a teeth a lot more than I used to.

      Those are only a few measly examples among many, but they're the only ones I'm bothering to type out. I hope that this month, and the rest of this year, will bring chances for you to blossom into a new person, physically and mentally, just like it did for me.